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Menyambung posting sebelumnya soal seni, belakangan ini gw sedang seneng bikin2 themes untuk handphone. Sejak dikasih hadiah hp sama my boyfriend pas ultah Maret lalu, gw jadi seneng donlot2 themes & ringtones gratis di zedge.net. Lama2 jadi kepingin juga nyoba bikin themes sendiri supaya lebih personal. Juga kepingin menguploadnya disitu. Ada 3 themes yg gw bikin:

1. Aries theme. Ini theme yg paling pertama gw bikin. Makanya masih katro abis. Hahaha.. Ilustrasinya juga gw yg bikin dan pernah diposting disini juga. Sebetulnya theme ini lumayan. Tampilan awalnya udah gw bikin animated. Mau dibetulin lagi tapi udah terlanjur diupload. Heheh

2. Pisces theme.
   Ini theme ke-2 yg gw bikin.. Kalo yg ini asli gambarnya gw yg buat. Dulu ilustrasi ini pernah gw posting disini juga. Theme yg ini desktop & tab2nya animated loh. (*bangga amat :p)

3. Gorjuss theme.
   Theme ini bukan asli gw yang gambar. Gorjuss ini karakter yg dibuat oleh illustrator Inggris: Suzanne Wolcott. Dari 3 theme yg gw buat, theme satu ini yg paling banyak didonlot orang.

So far, theme2 yg gw bikin masih untuk Sony Ericsson K618i. Soalnya itulah tipe hp gw. Biar lebih mudah pas uji cobanya. Kalo berminat, silakan donlot aja..

Now I’m working on some new stuff. Kepengen bikin yg bagus.. Soalnya ada kepuasan tersendiri kalo themesnya banyak yg donlot. Apalagi kalo mereka kasih komen2 yg positif.

Oh ya… pengen sedikit komen soal UEFA Euro 2008, gw kesal krn sering2nya ketiduran. Padahal kepengen ngikutin full matches. Hiks… Pokoknya, final harus.. rus nonton. Gw gak punya tim favorit. Tapi malah lebih enjoy krn siapapun tim yg bagus mainnya gw kasi applause keras2 sampe jingkrak2. Hahaha… So fun!!!!

Next post: kota Solo.

When the Rain Falls Down on Me, rhani, sketch, pencil on paper, 1995-2007

When you came…
You cast the rain to fall down on me
Made me wet all over..
Cause I didn’t bring my umbrella, nor my raincoat…

I wasn’t prepared

The needle-like raindrops hit my flesh, through my bones..
waking me up from my dream
Made me realize that those flowers weren’t real..
That the beautiful meadow was just not there..
That I was there on the street.. all alone.. all soaking wet..

Ouch

Being suddenly awaken, shocked by the sudden emptiness inside,
I could feel my tears slowly running down my cheeks..
And through the curtain of falling rain I could see you staring at me from afar.
Quietly I thanked you..
for the rain you’d caused disguised my tears

And so, to cheer me up you said:
There should be sunshine after the rain..
There should be laughter after the pain..
I knew that you took those lines from a song..
but you DID make me feel better..
And it was sweet…

At the fact that I was left alone under the pouring rain..
I know for sure that if you are near.. you will, without hesitation, lend your shoulder for me to cry on…

Thanks buddy..
my Rain Man…

this post is dedicated to my Rain Man.. I hope you don’t mind the name I gave you

Broken Wing, rhani, illustration, 2007.

One of the angel’s wing is broken…
With just one wing
will she ever make it
to the moon..?

hiatus, rhani, sketch, 2007.

Kayaknya gw perlu hiatus nih sementara waktu…
I’ll be missing u guys..
C u when I c u…

Happy Birthday, rhani, computer illustration, 2007

Sebetulnya sih dah tanggal 21 Maret kemarin tapi telat postingnya saking pingin buru2 posting tentang film 300 Jangan tanya umur, ah, yg pasti setaun lebih tua..

Ada kejadian lucu pa gw beli kue ultah di malem sebelumnya. Gw beli buat temen2 kantor gw & gw minta itu kue dikirim ke kantor gw besok paginya before lunch. Iseng2 gw tanya si mas2 di belakang counter..
“Mas, bisa dikasih tulisan gak kuenya?”
Masnya: “oh, bisa mbak.. Mau tulisan apa?”
Gw: …”mmm….Happy Birthday Me, deh”
eh muka si Masnya langsung berubah geli gitu. Sial.. :p
Gw: “hehe.. narsis banget ya mas.. maap ya mas..”
Masnya: “Owh, ga papa, mbak.. Mmmm….saya tulis HB Me aja ya..” (mungkin maksud dia biar gak terlalu narsis amat… padahal kan emang maunya narsis.. :p)
Gw: “ya, ok mas.” (dalem hati: ya sutralah, mas.. hehe)

Trus sebelum gw pergi si masnya itu ngulurin tangan ke gw. “Selamat ulang tahun ya, Mbak.” “Owh makasiiiihhh….” balas gw sambil senyum girang. Dalem hati sih sebetulnya rada sedih juga.. to the fact that the first person who congratulate me for my birthday was a total stranger.. not someone who’s dear to me.
Ga papa deh… tengs to masnya…!

cerish life, rhani, computer illustration, today.

I really-really love this song.. Sung by Lighthouse Family, my favourite band. The lyrics touch my heart and gives me spirit to face the hardest days..
And now I want to give this, especially to my inspiration..
..Just remember,..One day We’re gonna get so high..

HIGH by Lighthouse Family

When you’re close to tears remember
Some day it’ll all be over
One day ‘we’re gonna get so high
And though it’s darker than December
What’s ahead is a different colour
One day ‘we’re gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
We’ll remember the days
We were close to the edge
And we’ll wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
We’ll remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We’ll remember it was me and you

‘Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You’ll always keep me flying high in the sky of love

Don’t you think it’s time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day ‘we’re gonna get so high
‘Cause even the impossible is easy
When we got each other One day ‘we’re gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
We’ll remember the days
We were close to the edge
And we’ll wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
We’ll remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We’ll remember it was me and you

‘Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

High, high, high, high

Aquarius sign, rhani, computer illustration, a work for Jakarta24 Magazine, 2003

Pernah ngalamain kejadian kayak gini gak?

Weekend kemarin gw lg jalan2 ke hero.. trus pas lagi nyusurin aisle-nya, eh..eh..eh.. ada apa tuh.. warna yg gw kok rasanya familiar skali yaa… O-o-o.. ternyata ada cewek pake baju yg sama dg yg gw lagi pake saat itu. Di dalem hati ada rasa gimanaa gitu ya.. dari kemarin gw coba nyari kata2 ngelukiskan perasaan itu tapi belom bisa nemuin rumusan yg tepatnya. Hahaha…

Sebenernya sih kejadian gitu ngga ajaib, mengingat baju itu kan benda yg diproduksi massal (gw gak cukup tajir buat pesen 1 baju eksklusif dari desainer kondang :p). Cuman ya itu tadi.. rasanya gimanaaa gitu kalo ngalamin kejadian gini. Apalagi di pesta. Wah, kalo di pesta sih lain soal ya.. Mungkin gw akan pake aksesori apa gitu, yg cukup gede buat bikin penampilan gw jd beda.

Anyway,.. gw perhatiin dari jauh tu cewek kembaran gw itu.. trus gw mulai berpikir jelek deh, “Fiuh.. untung kerenan gw.. Kaos itu jatuhnya lebih bagus di badan gw”. halahh.. gak penting banget yaaa…. so shallow yaa… But, it’s so human juga sih.. (Thank God I’m still human.. even if it’s in negative meaning :p)

Tapi ternyata ada juga orang yg agak sedikit berlebihan nanggepin hal macam gini. Pernah ada temen gw, begitu tau bajunya sama dg yg dipake orang, tuh baju langsung masuk tong sampah. Yay…

Note: Soal gambar diatas, kayaknya ketinggalan deh, belom sempet gw post bareng zodiak2 yg lain dulu. Tapi gak papa lah.. Dipost sekarang malah pas kok ya, sama bulannya

Buat yg merasa berulang tahun di bulan ini.., selamat ya..

While the Moon’s Away.., rhani, computer illustration, original work, 2007

Gambar diatas ini sebetulnya terinspirasi lagu “High” nya James Blunt. Tapi entah kenapa kok gambarnya malah nuansanya naive begini.. Hehe.. aneh.. Padahal ngebuatnya juga sambil dengerin lagu itu di iTunes. Heeran…. Well, maybe nothing’s wrong with it.. maybe it’s what I feel about the song.. (?)

To Ella, this work is my tribute to JB too.. Kesannya gak mau kalah gitu gw.. hihihi.. Hidup JB!!!

Will you be my shoulder when I’m grey and older?
Promise me tomorrow starts with you,
Getting high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it’s hard to believe you remember me…

Terus.. gw lagi suka banget sama lagu ini. Lyricnya sesuai banget sama suasana hati & keadaan gw saat ini:

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

Ada yg tau lagu siapa itu? Hehe.. (pertanyaan retoris sih sebenernya )

Actually, someone gave it to me. I really love love it ever since! And love the one who gave it to me too.

So, what song suits your mood today?

Caramuru part2, rhani, color pencil & pastel on paper, illustration for Femina Magazine, for story: “Caramuru”, 1999

Orang2 yg dekat dg gw umumnya tau kalo gw suka ngumpulin bon2 pembayaran & kwitansi2, belum lagi sobekan tiket nonton, tiket pesawat/ kereta api ato karcis parkir. Kalo buat gw, ini sebagai ganti dari menulis diary yg dulu sempet gw jadikan kebiasaan waktu gw masih SMP. Dg ngeliat tanggal yg tertera di lembaran2 itu gw langsung inget kejadian2 yg berhubungan. Malah biasanya jamnya juga tercantum. Jadi lebih akurat Sebetulnya lebih asik begini sih, ketimbang nulis diary. Selain gw suka gak konsisten moodnya untuk bisa secara teratur nulis tiap hari, receipt2 itu juga ngelatih memory gw untuk meluaskan ingatan dari informasi minim yg tertera di secarik kertas itu ke peristiwa2 yg berhubungan dengannya. yah, mirip riak air yg meluas deh. Gitu kira2 kalo divisualisasikan Oh ya.. ada lagi satu kebiasaan gw, yaitu nyalin sms2 dari inbox hape gw. Lengkap dg tanggal, jam & pengirim. Nah, lengkap sudah sistem diary gw! ^_^ V.

–To Live In The Past & To Live with The Past–

Someone asked me recently why do I keep those tokens & keep sakes. Then I began to give a serious thought about it. (heheh)

So… Lemme see… hmmm…. I think the reason why I keep them is because I value my past as much as I value myself. I respect whatever happened to me in the past as what have made me what I am today. BUT.. that doesn’t mean that I live in the past.

You see,.. there’s a big difference between to live in the past and to live with the past. Sometimes, someone can’t accept what had happened to them in the past & therefore, wants to forget the memory. Even wish to erase ‘em. On the contrary, sometimes someone wish to go back to the past.. to the time when He/ She had better time, to the presence of their loved ones around them, perhaps.. and to make it worse, get obsessed with it. This is what I call “To live in the past.” I, myself,.. just accept my memories.. Beautiful ones.. sad ones.. success & failure.. That is, I think, my way of keeping sane. And my way of trying to grasp what live is all about. I keep memories but not drowned in them. And I don’t move backwards..
..This is what I call “To live with the past.”

Happy New Year 2007!!!, rhani, computer illustration, 2006.